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On May 9th, 2012 around four in the morning I got woken by my mom crying hysterically about something she saw on the news. I was half asleep when she was telling me what was going on, all I understood was somebody we knew fell out of a window at UC Berkeley. Shortly after she told me I fell back to sleep. A few hours later when I woke up I went to talk to her about it. She told me my lifelong friend Henry fell out of his dorm room window and passed away. I didn’t know what to say or how to react, all I could do was think to myself how does somebody just fall out of a window? We found out a short time later that he posted a status on facebook saying “Rest In Peace Henry Treadway 11/18/91 - 5/8/2012”. He had committed suicide, now all the tears started pouring out of my eyes. All the regret began, why did I lose contact with him? Why wasn’t I there for him? I still ask myself these questions. Henry was one of the greatest people I knew. He had the biggest, brightest smile EVER. When we were growing up we were attached at the hip. It was always Henry and I hanging out at daycare, we were both really shy kids that’s why we got along so good. He always had the biggest crush on me when we were kids. Tomorrow will be eight months since he’s been gone, and I still can’t get over it. Not a day goes by where Henry doesn’t cross my mind. I hope he knows how much he is missed and loved. I also hope he knows how bad I feel that we lost contact with each other. I know Henry has found the peace that he was looking for. He’s up there relaxed and not stressing about anything anymore. Even though we will never know why Henry did it at least we know he is in a better place now. I am so grateful that Henry was a part of my life. Please keep watching over us. May you Rest In Paradise Henry Treadway. Love and miss you. See you soon.